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Date:2007-08-09 12:06
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it seems as though all the people around me have quit/fired from the recent job they were at, and can't get hired into a new one. I hope that this isn't some symbol or sign of things to come this school year for me.

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Date:2006-09-19 22:41
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If been listening to really brainless music lately, why is that?

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Date:2006-09-17 20:18
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Holy crap was last night full of Pabst. I may have broken up a couple and don't really feel to bad about it.

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Date:2006-09-11 21:23
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I need help with figuring out what digital camera to buy. I'm look to spend between $200 and $250. Any suggestions?

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Date:2006-09-11 21:17
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I've been able to not think about the ex-girlfriend today, until I read my journal from the other days. I think that it was the fact that she bought a house, which made me think about her even more. The issue of her living with her parents was enormous when we were together. I still don't know if I made the right decision, at least until I meet someone new. The new issue in my life in relationships is if I should even start dating someone if i plan on moving in June. I know that it sounds like a ways off, however, relationships were the reasons that I didn't move far away before. I'm just afraid I getting into a rut, which I feel like I'm fighting to stay/get out of.

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Date:2006-09-10 20:10
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Went and played an invite only Disc Golf Tourny. It was a fun time except for my last round, the group was not fun to play with. I drank way too much beer this weekend and will be going to sleep in a few hours, so to avoid being an asshole tomorrow.

I still want to call the ex girlfriend, I just don't know if I should. I was able to take her off my mind for most of the weekend. I just get this longing and I don't know why. I feel like I let someone very special go and I just realized that a week ago. Oh what to do?

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Date:2006-09-05 15:54
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can't get my mind off of her. This is becomming a problem.

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Date:2006-09-04 13:53
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my heart is hurting. This is the first time in my life that I have felt this way for an extended period of time. How is it possible that I can feel this way after a month of being broken up with her? I don't know if it was this weekend and not meeting anyone new and interesting that has to do with it. I'm having a hard time making my lesson plans for the upcomming week.

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Date:2006-08-30 18:50
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so I was on my way to school today, on bicycle, and got a flat on my front tire. I bought a multi-tool for this reasons, so I thought that all would be fine. However, I couldn't get the tire off with the tool and had to walk 20 blocks back home. So I was 20 min. late to work (1st day where just the teachers report). what a great sign! Please don't let this be a symbol for what is to come this year.

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Date:2006-08-29 15:47
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I'm going to ride my fixed gear bike to work tomorrow, 12 miles one way. Hopefully I won't be to smelly for the other teachers.

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Date:2006-08-28 18:43
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Damn where did this summer go? It doesn't seem like I had about three months off already, guess that i did. I like the summer, you don't have to bundle up to go outside. Also no snow shoveling is involved during the summer months.

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Date:2006-08-23 13:40
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I'm just generally in a loop of nothingness. I just feel blah most of the time or upset that I have settled into doing nothing. I wanted to move but that never happened. I can't move now b/c the school year is about to start and I don't want to put my school in a bad situation. I'm sick of the same old crappy bars and drinking. I should just stop drinking and live healthier, too bad I can't cook and don't want to expent the energy or money to learn how to cook. I also really need to clean my apartment. Ever since beth and i broke up I haven't done shit for cleaning. Not that I'm all depressed that we are over, I just really hate cleaning, As for the beth thing, well it was a sloppy break-up, yet it needed to be done. We both want different things in life and I can't give up some key things. Everytime I go out in Kenosha or Racine the girls jst seem dumb or unattractive. I should have justed moved to Chicago and taken an office job or something and become numb to the world. Oh well, off to attempt to clean or take a nap.

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Date:2006-05-08 20:58
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well....once again I chickened out and didn't have the full bore discussion with the lady friend. Sometimes I'm such a wuss.

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Date:2006-04-30 15:58
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not even going to pretend to play catch up and write about all the shit that has happened, since the last update.

It seems like every year, about this time or the fall, I have developed a shitty attitude. I'm just generally not happy and want a change in my life. However, I don't have the balls to have conversations like this with my girlfriend. I want a new job. I don't know if i will continue teaching, since there are some many fucking government regs. if i stay at this current school I have to pay about $2,000 for undergrad classes, which won't boost my pay or put me closer to a gred. degree. so i've basically decidede to say fuck it, i'm not paying the money to take there classes. the problem is that i need to talk to my principal about it. this is a task that i don't want to do, so like most americans, i'm putting it off.

i just need a sign or something to direct me as to what decisions to make. should i just move back to IL, move to WA, or move to NC? also do i stay with the current girlfriend, in a broken relationship? we haven't seen each other in about 5 weeks or so. i feel like these topics should be brought up for the first time over the phone, yet it makes me sick to constantly think about what to tell her and how she will react. oh........what to do?

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Date:2006-01-09 20:13
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FOUR JOBS YOU'VE HAD IN YOUR LIFE
Teacher
Substitute teacher
Music Director
Draftsman

FOUR MOVIES YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER
Orgazmo
Rules of the Game
Blues Brothers
400 Blows

FOUR CITIES/TOWNS YOU'VE LIVED IN:
Kenosha
Chicago
Milwaukee
McHenry

FOUR TV SHOWS YOU LOVE TO WATCH
South Park
Aqua Teen hunger Force
Hockey (Pro or college)
Chicago White Sox baseball

FOUR PLACES YOU'VE BEEN ON VACATION:
Maui
Canada
Idaho
Wisconsin

FOUR WEBSITES YOU VISIT DAILY:
my school e-mail account
yahoo
www.pdga.com
www.espn.com


FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (right now):
Women we haven't met
Farmer Chords
Naked Eye
Drink to Moving On

FOUR OF YOUR ALL-TIME FAVOURITE BARS:
Yesterdays
Great Dane
JJ's
Tuman's

FOUR OF YOUR FAVOURITE FOODS:
Burritos
Steak
Shrimp
ice cream

FOUR PLACES I'D RATHER BE RIGHT NOW
Germany
Idaho
In Earth's orbit
Maui

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Date:2006-01-04 20:09
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fuck laundry. I really hate it, however, not much as cleaning. They both are pointless since the stuff ends up dirty again.

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Date:2006-01-04 19:56
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i feel like i need to do the year wrap-up thing. Yet I don't feel like doing it. X-mas break was way to short or not long enough. Just long enough to get my sleep patterns out of wack, yet not long enough do anything special. I'm checked out as far as this semester goes, two weeks to go and i'm on fumes.

Things with Beth are kinda shitty and I'm not feeling like patching them back up. It's more of me not wanted to learn to deal with bitching and dealing with someone who wants to switch thier job.

I still read my friends journals, so don't feel like I'm not there.

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Date:2005-11-17 20:27
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the emotional seperation has already started. I feel the same way as I did before I broke up with Sophie. I'm predicting this is going to end before x-mas. I just want different things in a women, which the current girlfriend does not have. The problem with ending this relationship is that we live far away from each other and I feel bad making her drive up here and breaking up with her. I guess that I should just drive down there and break up with her, since it seems bound to happen. Which raises the next problem, where do I do it? She lives with her parents and I don't want to do it in a car or out to eat. Any suggestions?

I'm not proofing this post.

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Date:2005-10-30 14:38
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on friday i went to a bike ride/rally in Chicago, thrown by critical mass. It was cool, there had to be 1,000+ people riding taking up about 1.5 blocks. I rode greg's fixed gear bike, meaning that the pedals always move and you can't coast, oh and there are really no brakes on the bike, you have to press against the pedals to make the bike stop. Bikes like that are good when you want to ride fast and not stop. During the ride we had to go slow and stop multiple times, making my legs ache and a long timewise ride, four hours total. Good thing about this ride was being able to talk to people that I haven't been able to for a long time. Plus riding by yourself gives you a lot of time to think in depth about certain topics. Overall it was a good time and I will attend more rides next year when it gets warmer.

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Date:2005-09-22 18:45
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You are a

Social Liberal
(63% permissive)

and an...

Economic Liberal
(36% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Centrist




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